What you say: I believe in God but I hate Him!
What the Bible says: God identified Himself as "I Am" (Exodus 20:2) - meaning He is the self-existent (has no beginning or end) eternal Creator of the universe.
About the Trinity:
What you say: I'm not sure whether the Trinity is real or not.
What the Bible says: There is one God and yet three Persons (Isaiah 45:5; Deuteronomy 6:4; James 2:19).
About Jesus:
What you say: I have an enduring and burning hatred of Jesus.
What the Bible says: Jesus is fully God and fully man. He is the God of the universe (John 1:1, 14, 18; 8:58; 10:30. Compare Titus 2:13 and Isaiah 45:21), and He is equal with God the Father and God the Holy Spirit, and one of His primary missions in coming to earth was to "destroy the works of the devil" (1 John 3:8).
About the Bible:
What you say: The Bible as a book full of myths and lies designed to keep people from enjoying life.
What the Bible says: The Bible alone is the word of God and is absolute truth. It is without error. It cannot and should not be added to or subtracted from (2 Timothy 3:16-4:4; Revelation 22:18-20).
About the Afterlife:
What you say: I'm not sure whether there is an afterlife or not, and if there is, it won't have places like heaven and hell, and Satan will have ultimate victory. I'm much more concerned with getting as much pleasure out of this life than worrying about the next.
What the Bible says: Those who trust in Christ alone as their only hope of salvation spend eternity in heaven; those who reject Christ spend an eternity in hell. (John 5:24-30; Revelation 20:11-15).
About Salvation:
What you say: My whole life focuses on sinning, so I definitely don't see a need to be 'saved' from anything.
What the Bible says: Salvation is by faith in Christ on the basis of His death on the cross. (John 3:16-17, 36; 6:29, 47; Romans 4:1-5; Galatians 2:16; Ephesians 2:8-9; Titus 3:5). Only through salvation do we have true happiness. Jesus said, "The thief (meaning Satan) comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." John 10:10.
I know that you're hurting and you feel trapped underneath, that's why I'm trying to help you.